Anaphylaxic shock

[misaki]

Well, I'm usually optimistic but Whoever Are Up There are seriously amusing themselves by ruining my life. Or, more speficially, my ability to enjoy life fully. I've had to deal with severe food, animal and contact allergies in the past, but my last reaction was close to an anaphylactic shock. Which is deadly. Now that's not that important, life is deadly in some way or another anyway. But now that my allergies somehow worsened, I now not only have to never eat anything I haven't cooked myself/called to the factory about, checked and double checked, but...I can't kiss anyone anymore. Or at least, not the spontaneous way I want to. One simple stupid kiss on the lips can be deadly for me. Like some twisted version of Snow White. I don't want to live this way! Well, not that I want to stop living (hah.), but I'm kind of really depressed/messed up by this.

I'm a spontaneous person. I'm also someone who loves human contact. And falling in love and yadda yadda, living the moment. And now my body is stopping me from living semi-carelessly. Can you imagine? Imagine any romantic movie kissing scene,, they're almost touching blabla...and than one of them shouts "STOP!!! You have to wait 6 hours and eat nothing, 'cause the allergens are only gone after 6 hours. Sorry" Goodbye romantic moment.


...Well, I love Monty Python. Really. But I don't want my life to become a Python movie. It's just horrible. I'm not allowed to be spontaneous, to just live, to stroke an animal, kiss someone, whatever. I hate it. And I'm convinced there has to be a way to stop/cure this! It just has to. I know how my allergies work, and I know that there's no cure, actually. Well, except from some shady alternative therapies that claim to be able to cure everyone (yeah right.). However, I'm ready to try any somewhat more reasonable-sounding alternative therapy. Sadly, most of them are pure nonsense, as is easy to see when you know a bit about both physics/biology and reiki, occult things and stuff. So yeah. God, I'm ready to try anything, but there's no way you're convincing me curing yourself of an allergy is as easy as being touched by someone. Sorry. No. It simply doesn't work that way. If it really did, every allergic person would just visit them and be done with it. Most of us who have these very severe allergies are pretty much desperate. Plus, there probably wouldn't be so many negative articles spread all over the Internet on it if it really worked

Anyway, I'm desperate. I simply refuse to accept this. Of course it's healthy to learn to deal with your limitations, but I just feel there's something completely wrong going on with my body. First of; I know my body is insane/out of balance anyway, since allergies are simply the result of a crazy imunesystem that sees food/other harmless things as poison. Allergies are not an illness, they're the result of your body going crazy in a way. Also, my allergies get more and more and worse. I used to be allergic to peanuts & nuts only. Then rabbits were added. Horses the next year. All the animals with hairs the year after that. Then I suddenly started reacting to hay. Then to all sorts of deodorant. Next came fruits. Fruits! I didn't even know you could be allergic to apple, plum or all those other things. I don't know what's going to come next. Will I eventually be allergic to everything? Strange thought, but today, when researching a bit on allergies, I found out it's possible to be allergic to sperm. My first reaction was laughing. Then I realized that could be next, and it wasn't that funny anymore. Hell no, I don't think it's funny at all anymore. And I thought not being allowed to just kiss was bad? Hope this one isn't next.

All in all, it sounds like you could eventually be allergic to everything that together makes up life, like being allergic to life itself. I simply do not want that and am convinced there has to be something I can do about it. I don't think it'll be easy though. But yeah, I'm ready to try anything, ranging from only eating champignons for 2 months to a kissing marathon...*cough* I mean, running ...As long as there's any scientific/common sense logic behind it. Help! Please? Does anyone know anything about this kind of thing?

Well, I'm already seeing the psycho therapist to deal with the anxiety attacks I've had after the last reaction, so that part will be okay. I've always been able to deal with my allergies well, I'm pretty much mentally stable, it's just the shock, I guess. But there's more to life than the mental side of things. I want to backpack around the world and kiss someone I love without thinking twice about it. Well, nothing bad about planning, but yeah. I don't want to live in a glass box. I just don't want to worry my life away. And I won't. I just have to find out how?


This ain't no heaven, ain't no hell , ain't no in between
Cause there's just too many faces and places in this world, that I aint ever seen
I'm gonna keep on keeping on, I'm gonna reap on being strong
I got my head on, though misconnected
It's alright cause I do it protected ;D

[keyodie]

Oh wow that is horrible. ((((hugs)))) I'm sorry but I don't know much about that kind of thing. I hope you get better though! Best of luck to you!

[ladytera]

Aerlinn, I admit I only know a little about allergies, and thankfully most of that knowledge is academic rather than personal. You are right about your body going a little nuts. A doctor finally explained that you body creates antibodies for pretty much everything, and as you are exposed more and more to any item that causes that antibody to build in your system, more antibody is created, eventually causing allergic reactions. And yes, sperm is something they are finding some people are allergic to. Happily, from what I understand, it's not all sperm, it's usually sperm from a certain individual or individuals, and can probably be linked to something dietary on your partners side of things. While that might kill your spontaneity, there is hope it won't entirely annihilate your sex life.

Now, for the help. While I don't know much about allergies, I do know a bit about research, but I have a couple of questions for you first. What medications are you currently on for allergies, and what medications have you tried in the past? What, specifically, are you allergic to? How long have you had problems with allergies, and are there other influences (stress for instance) that cause your reactions to be more violent or more frequent? Let me know, and I'll see what I can find out for you.