I'm not going to be around much....

[Hravan]

OK, for the next few months I probably won't be joining in with the debate or discussion forums. In all likelihood the only thing I'll be coming on here for is the Heroes Fanclub as it's something fun.
I've just started counselling. I have severe depression and anxiety disorder. I know, I'm 17, what could I possibly be depressed about?! Well most 17 years old haven't been through the crap I've been through. (And yes, I do know there are other people who've had even worse times then me but atm I'm going to be selfish and concentrate on me because 4 years of think "Oh, other people have had it even worse than this" hasn't worked.)
There's 14 years of shit that I need to sort out. Really it is 17 but I don't have many memories from before I was 3/4, so about 14 years really.
So, anyhoo, I can't cope with debating etc at the moment. I've had to drop out of my RPG forums as well because I don't have the capacity to keep up with them as well. I've got to try and concentrate on my college work and put all my remaining energy into that. So I probably won't be in the debate/discussion forums for a long time, most likely not 'til after my A levels are over which is June.
The only forums I'm still going to be fairly active on are my LotR forums I'm on but then probably only discussing the books and films as they're my escape route. (I used to burn myself but now I read Tolkien... much healthier and actually makes me feel better ) So for those of you who are on there, I'll still be around on A-U.com a bit.

Anyway, that's why I haven't been and won't be posting very much on here. Sorry but I'll just be useless debating and quite frankly I can't be bothered to waste what little energy I have left on it.

[ladytera]

Hravan, I feel for you, and all I can say is that it will eventually get better, especially since you are actively trying to deal with it. In all honesty, I can't say I'm surprised that you're taking a break from the debates if that's what's going on with you. Depression and anxiety are bad enough without adding the stress of a whopping argument about things that matter to you. I suffered from both several years back and just going to the store was enough to send me into a panic often times. Avoiding stressors actually does help quite a bit.

That being said, if you ever feel the need to talk anything out, you are always welcome, either in the Psych Ward section if you're looking for broad based help, suggestions, and commiseration, or you're welcome to PM me or Ammy, or I'm sure many of the other folks on here as well. Best of luck to you with college and with counseling. A new year is coming, and with it new hope and new opportunities. If you can just keep that in the forefront of your mind, it might help to stave off the darkness.

[keyodie]

I'm very sorry to hear that you won't be around much, but I understand perfectly. I'll be seeing you in the Heroes club.