Post by Ammy Fae on Jul 13, 2008 0:14:55 GMT -5
I'll post excerpts of my book up here as I get them typed up.
Warning: gore, horror, and sexual content
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There were screams, so many screams. Inside of my head for those of them who couldn’t find their voices, outside of it for those that could, the high-pitched keening like nothing I’d endured before now. What human could make these tortured noises? What could possibly cause these sounds? I stumbled down the black hallway with my hands over my ears like a child. I couldn’t think, couldn’t breathe; I just moved. The screams got louder, then softer, then louder again as I tried to find their source. I had to make it stop, I had to get the screaming out of my head.
It must have been only a few minutes, but it felt like hours later to me when I finally slumped to the floor against a wall, rocking back and forth like Lady did. The screams didn’t falter. The doctors should have killed her by now, should have made it stop. I was sure by now my ears were permanently scarred and my mind would never quite be able to get rid of the horrible screeching. Without thinking, I covered my head and closed my eyes as tightly as I could and felt the slight whoosh of my head before hitting the stone wall behind me. It was only a dull throbbing, not enough to distract me. I did it again and this time felt the jab of sharp pain, the warm blood trickling down my neck and making the rest of me cold. Suddenly my pulse beat wildly, trying to make up for the blood I was losing, overshadowing the screams. That was better. I could concentrate.
I only had a few minutes before I got dizzy, so I searched with my mind instead of my bumbling hands. Carefully I shifted onto my hands and knees, shuffling towards the doors to my left. One, two, three. Plop plop plop. Drops of blood hit the linoleum floor beneath me, causing an eerie echo that rang in my ears. Two, three. Plop plop. There, the door I’d passed a dozen times in my frantic searching. My heart sped faster than necessary, I was nauseas. There was no time for regret, though. No time for guilt to touch me here and now. Plop plop plop.
I stepped forward and opened the door to my room.
When the blinding overhead lights washed over me in the dark hallway outside the room, I relized several things all at once, as I tended to do. Firstly, Galaina was missing. She hadn’t stepped out of the room since she’d been shifted to this ward the week after me. That was the first thing I realized because, stupid as I was, I thought that the screaming had been mute Galaina, finally horrified enough by what the doctors did to her to retaliate. The second thing was that nothing was where I had put it. My notebooks and pencils were propped against my bed frame instead of my desk, papers were scattered as they always were but not in the same patterns as I had left them. I would have to rearrange things again. For one second I was dizzied by how much that upset me.
The third and final thing I noticed in my moment’s observation was that I didn’t recognize this doctor. How odd; I thought I knew all the doctors here. Maybe he was from another wing. Whatever the case, he had a horrible self-satisfied grin on his face. A scar peeked out of the collar of his shirt at the back of his neck, disappearing again into his carefully cropped hairline. Besides that, he was perfect, like all the doctors. You would think that perfection would seem less substantial after living around and with it for so long, but it never ceased to amaze me how symmetrical they were, how proportionate. Normal people, Galaina had told me once, weren’t so beautiful. The grinning doctor had his hand cupped over Lady’s mouth, which is why I suppose my ears had stopped rebelling, letting my mind take the sharp edge of Lady’s cries by itself.
Red seeped into my vision. Curious, I thought in sudden pre-unconsciousness lucidity, that I would faint now. I had seen all this before, had seen countless girls writhe in pain beneath countless grinning doctors. Lady was no different from any of the other little sheep. What if it had been Galaina? I supposed I might have fainted if it were her, or been braver and tried to stop it. The red got a bit darker and my ears started working again. Plop plop plop. Oh yes, my head was still bleeding. That would explain the red. The strange doctor ignored me, Lady didn’t search for me with her eyes but stared at the ceiling like it would be kind enough to swallow her up. The last thing I saw before I fell to the floor was a single tear, so unlike Lady, trailing down her cheek and plopping to the floor in rhythm with my blood drops.
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Comments are always welcome.
Warning: gore, horror, and sexual content
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There were screams, so many screams. Inside of my head for those of them who couldn’t find their voices, outside of it for those that could, the high-pitched keening like nothing I’d endured before now. What human could make these tortured noises? What could possibly cause these sounds? I stumbled down the black hallway with my hands over my ears like a child. I couldn’t think, couldn’t breathe; I just moved. The screams got louder, then softer, then louder again as I tried to find their source. I had to make it stop, I had to get the screaming out of my head.
It must have been only a few minutes, but it felt like hours later to me when I finally slumped to the floor against a wall, rocking back and forth like Lady did. The screams didn’t falter. The doctors should have killed her by now, should have made it stop. I was sure by now my ears were permanently scarred and my mind would never quite be able to get rid of the horrible screeching. Without thinking, I covered my head and closed my eyes as tightly as I could and felt the slight whoosh of my head before hitting the stone wall behind me. It was only a dull throbbing, not enough to distract me. I did it again and this time felt the jab of sharp pain, the warm blood trickling down my neck and making the rest of me cold. Suddenly my pulse beat wildly, trying to make up for the blood I was losing, overshadowing the screams. That was better. I could concentrate.
I only had a few minutes before I got dizzy, so I searched with my mind instead of my bumbling hands. Carefully I shifted onto my hands and knees, shuffling towards the doors to my left. One, two, three. Plop plop plop. Drops of blood hit the linoleum floor beneath me, causing an eerie echo that rang in my ears. Two, three. Plop plop. There, the door I’d passed a dozen times in my frantic searching. My heart sped faster than necessary, I was nauseas. There was no time for regret, though. No time for guilt to touch me here and now. Plop plop plop.
I stepped forward and opened the door to my room.
When the blinding overhead lights washed over me in the dark hallway outside the room, I relized several things all at once, as I tended to do. Firstly, Galaina was missing. She hadn’t stepped out of the room since she’d been shifted to this ward the week after me. That was the first thing I realized because, stupid as I was, I thought that the screaming had been mute Galaina, finally horrified enough by what the doctors did to her to retaliate. The second thing was that nothing was where I had put it. My notebooks and pencils were propped against my bed frame instead of my desk, papers were scattered as they always were but not in the same patterns as I had left them. I would have to rearrange things again. For one second I was dizzied by how much that upset me.
The third and final thing I noticed in my moment’s observation was that I didn’t recognize this doctor. How odd; I thought I knew all the doctors here. Maybe he was from another wing. Whatever the case, he had a horrible self-satisfied grin on his face. A scar peeked out of the collar of his shirt at the back of his neck, disappearing again into his carefully cropped hairline. Besides that, he was perfect, like all the doctors. You would think that perfection would seem less substantial after living around and with it for so long, but it never ceased to amaze me how symmetrical they were, how proportionate. Normal people, Galaina had told me once, weren’t so beautiful. The grinning doctor had his hand cupped over Lady’s mouth, which is why I suppose my ears had stopped rebelling, letting my mind take the sharp edge of Lady’s cries by itself.
Red seeped into my vision. Curious, I thought in sudden pre-unconsciousness lucidity, that I would faint now. I had seen all this before, had seen countless girls writhe in pain beneath countless grinning doctors. Lady was no different from any of the other little sheep. What if it had been Galaina? I supposed I might have fainted if it were her, or been braver and tried to stop it. The red got a bit darker and my ears started working again. Plop plop plop. Oh yes, my head was still bleeding. That would explain the red. The strange doctor ignored me, Lady didn’t search for me with her eyes but stared at the ceiling like it would be kind enough to swallow her up. The last thing I saw before I fell to the floor was a single tear, so unlike Lady, trailing down her cheek and plopping to the floor in rhythm with my blood drops.
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